i have no church... and those ones are are wierd

Contrary to some people's belief church isn't the place where Fun goes to die... this morning i was reading about how Jesus flipped out and started tearing the place apart when he found out that people were buying and selling things in his Fathers house (Mark 11:15-). there are other scriptures where Jesus basically told people they were super-religious on the outside but deep down they were hypocrites and full of wickedness (Mattew 23:27-28). so this church issue has been goin on for years. what is church? and which one is the right one?

about a week ago i was driving with 2 friends in bournemouth and we passed a building that deemed itself a church. in my opinion the name of the church sounded like it had some kind of cult involvement, and in my friends opinion the roof of the building looked like they were involved in some sort of witchcraft. ok so on one hand it can be argued that we were being judgemental and blah blah you cant judge a book by its cover and blah blah you dont know till you've been inside... on the other hand i think in this day and age its important to use some wisdom and discernment in everything. they may be seeing the most powerful move of God of this century right inside those four walls - but i know i personally wont be entering to find out. call me what you will. there are so many people calling themselves christians. so many different forms of chrisitanity and so many different types of churches these days that its becoming difficult to distinguish which is real chrisianity. one thing i do know is fake christianity doesnt last long. those involved may even seem to prosper for a while, but soon something happens and as quickly as the movement started, it ends. God's word, like himself, is the same yesterday today and forever so anything based on it should last.

i recently heard about an art exhibition in Glasgow. basically its about people de-facing the Bible. the so called artists decided it would be a good idea to let people write whatever they felt like directly onto the pages of the Bible. encouraging people to engage in disrespectful, offensive and blaspheming nonsense is wrong on so many levels... then as if that isnt bad enough to find out that it has been done by the Metropolitan Community Church disgusts me to the core. what kind of church allows anything to be done to their holy book? how can a religion lose respect for the words from their own God? highlighting and underlining scriptures is one thing but this is taking it over-board. these people will pay for this - theres no doubt about it. (oh btw if anyone sees any form of petition against this please post it below, im gona try find one too)... to echo a spokesman for the catholic church: “one wonders whether the organisers would have been quite as willing to have the Koran defaced.” arrrgghhh even blogging about it is making me angry...

right now im kinda church-less. my bournemouth church was beyond fantastic. i felt like i was growing spiritually, the worship, the teaching, and the fellowship was great. i felt so accepted and at home - just wat i needed in my final year of uni ... now im back in london im in some sort of church-transition mode. i dont feel like im part of the church i used to attend here. its not that theres anything wrong with the worship or docrtine, im just not sure if thats where God wants me. maybe its because i havent attended it consistently for four years but for some reason it doesnt seem like my church anymore. everything has changed, there are so many new faces - and it really bugs me when people ask me if its my fisrt time visiting, i feel like screaming "excuse me, i grew up in this church, who are u?" self-control is actually a good gift to nurture. maybe i just need to get re-plugged back in, get to know the lovely newbies/ maybe i need to find a new church? im praying about it.

one things for sure if i do end up finding a new church for the sake of my salvation yes i will be skceptical. just because someone calls himself a pastor or bishop or apostle doesnt mean i should sit under their teaching or even give them my money. im lookin for the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. i dont need a watered-down description of it. i want my own encounter with Jesus and if a church cant lead me to Him, then its not for me. my point of view is that if faith can come by hearing then i need to be careful what or who im listening to coz by the same process unbelief, fear, or some random doctrine can also enter and two-twos a person ends up starting a stupid exhibition.

If what im hearing in church doesnt line up with whats in my Bible, im gona question it
Elle Naturelle
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"And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near" - Hebrews 10:25