job, career, work, employment

so as i tweeted earlier im officially part of im part of ChIPS - Chartered Institue of Professional Socialites... (unemployed graduate is so harsh on the ears) about 2 hours ago ChIPS - Chartered Institue of Professional Socialites. i refuse to be called unemployed, it doesnt sound cool... im looking for a job but enjoying life as much as possible. i loving chilled social occasions. i had a great birthday weekender with my nearest and dearest, my birthday on monday with mummy was lovely, and dinner with my uni friends last night was fantastic... i need a job though to fund my social adventures. speaking of jobs... im so confused right now. i dont know what to think... i got a call this morning from a lady i had an interview with last week... she basically said that i got the job, she wouldnt hesitate to employ me and gave me really good feedback about how the interview went. so there i was gettin really excited... untill she said unfortunately they cant recruit at the moment and she'll let me know in a month's time if i can actually start working there. ermm what?? so shouldnt they stop advertising for a job that doesnt exist? why did they interview me? wat was the point? are people allowed to do that? i dont get it.

not sure what to do, so here's the verse im standing on till i know:

"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." - Romans 8:28

I gotta feeling...

iv woken up early today. i dont think my body has acknowledged 7am's existance since i left uni... got an interview today. im not really nervous, am trying to stay calm. iv done as much preparation as i know how to, thanks to my girls for the tips...its kinda funny that my whole education process boils down to an hours' interview that will launch my career. dang. i really do want this job, so am praying for favour... i gotta a feeling God's plans will be fulfilled regardless of how this goes

here goes
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just saw this video, kinda made me smile - although i was secretly thinking they was a bit obvious something was going to happen when the woman at the front was dancing and everyone else stood like soldiers and barely even looked at her - good job anyway though.
i heart flashmob dancing



"Jesus looked at them intently and said, 'Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But not with God. Everything is possible with God.' " - Mark 10:27

God v CommonSense

During Soul Survivor, God dared me to live in total abandonment to him. my first thoughts were trying to decode what that statement actually entailed, like trying to figure out what i was about to sign my name on. i couldnt figure it out so i just ended up saying ok. so on the sly he's been testing me - aite so maybe sly is a bad word to use, but he's been giving me little challenges that i didnt realise would just show how willing i am to be obedient.

sadly i have to admit that iv been missing it. ive had one too many instances recently when i've heard the Holy Spirit say i should do something and jus not done it and kicked myself afterwards. like there was one day i was taking good old public transport to go to a meeting. got on the northern line, arrived at london bridge and the Holy Spirit said get off here, take the jubilee line and go a different way... but nooooo me i thought i could outsmart the all-knowing!!... anyway i ended up taking my own route which resulted in me being nearly an hour late, and i had the audacity to be upset and blame TFL... could have easily been avoided, if i had got off my blessed assurance and changed tube... i realise that somethings God says go totally against common sense - like taking two tubes instead of one isnt naturally logical, but hindsight says it would have saved time. funny how sometimes i spend ages saying 'Lord speak to me/ lead me' and when he does i dont follow his direction. some things may fail at the bar of common sense, but pass at the bar of faith... i realise that the reason God dared me was because on occasion when he asks me to do something i have the attitude of the dude in Luke 9:61 "I will follow you, Lord; but first..." its not that i dont want to initially follow him, but my habit has been to make his way my plan B. iv been a modern Jonah in some instances - when my way fails then i go his. but total abandonment requires more. immediate action to his command, and not looking back. "its all or nothing" has been a theme echoing in my friendship group for a while now. or as a wise woman i know says: "Go hard or Go home" - its definately a key phrase i need to start living by. i do want to live in total abandonment. i may not get to that point 2mw, but im willing to take the necessary steps.

i need to make His way plan A, and not have a plan B.
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“We’ve given up everything to follow you,” - Mark 10:28

2:30am thoughts

im still awake at stupid o'clock so thought id blog....

i went to an investment seminar today. was quite interesting actually. id love to invest some money, but uhhh i dont av any to invest rite now, which really sucks. this jobhunt is the most repetative and annoying process iv ever experienced. its not even that im not looking for stuff... actually i dont wana start moaning. God has everything in control. Thankyou Father for my job.

its my birthday soon. should i do something or not? 23 is not a cool number to celebrate, but im grateful for every year God has blessed me with... i kinda want to, but i cannot be bothered to organise anything. one of my pet-peevs is people letting me down. it seriously bugs me when a person says they'll do something and then dont. and i have a feeling, like with every other birthday, some will say they'll come and wont. i dont know if i can be bothered to go thru that. actually i just had an idea of what to do. hahaha... im gona send out invitations saying time, date and place and not ask whos coming or not. whoever shows up shows up, if no-one comes, i'll just treat myself to a meal out. avoids disappointment, and leaves room for an element of suprise.

oooo i started reading a book today! and for me thats actually amazing so im patting myself on the back... actually that wasnt a good thought to rant about seeing as im only in the 1st chapter so cant really make a valid point... but i have just learnt that bloggin at this time of day doesnt really work for me. i need some brain food... mmm ice-cream would do nicely... actually speaking of icecream!!! what is the world coming to?! im not very impressed with Ben&Jerry's any more. their stupid stunt of changing the name of their 'Chubby Hubby' flavour to 'Hubby Hubby' to support the freedom to marry and gay rights milarky is not cool. just for that, they've lost me as a fan. i dont support such things.

ermmm next... oh im trying to properly learn scriptures. like actually where they are in the bible. the other day someone asked me where a certain verse was. i said somewhere in Psalms and sang her the song "i will lift up mine eyes to the hills from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth... " i later thought to myself how it wasnt so great that i know songs and not verses. its not a sin or anything, but makes me think. i now know that its from Psalm 121, so i guess it wasnt too bad. yesterday i learnt Psalm 1:1-4. ok so quoting it on here wouldnt prove i know it, coz i could easily just copy & paste... wait im saying it in my head to test myself....wait......a lil longer.......a lil longer.........longer........arrghhh i cant remember the last verse!! but well done me. think i'll attempt one verse at a time, clearly my mind can just about do 3.

lol i just saw how unrelated this blog-thought-pattern was. mehh at this time of day, im allowed. ok its sleepy-time now.
xx

"In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe." - Psalm 4:8