Out with the old

I've been clearing out my room n wardrobe. i didn't realise how much crap iv kept. going through it all however has been quite fun. every now and then i look at something and have to sit down and allow a flood of memories to fill my brain. i am way too much of a sentimental person than i think is healthy, but i love it. take for example my royal blue leotard. wow. it holds so much, yet it now just looks like a worn out material that had definately seen better days. but as i hold it i remember the countless dance exams i did, the joys spent in years of dance lessons and the different shows i performed in. memories... sigh. let me leave that topic.

so yer as im going through my room i have so much time to think. i'm detoxing my brain as well as my immediate environment. I'm back at that point where i need to reassess my current location (in life) and set goals for the next steps... the year is not yet over, but i cant help but think about whether i've achieved what i set out to achieve this year. in someways maybe all i've done is float around my goals, been swept by the winds of life, and not necessarily seized hold of very much. ok i shouldnt be so hard on myself. i have done a lot of things, tried, succeeded in some areas, and learnt from others. all in all i know i am where i need to be right now, and the steps i've taken may appear pointless and the long route, but were definately necessary. i value those around me that support me even in my nonsense... i know im not making the most sense right now. my thoughts are still a bit discombobulated and im trying to sort them out. i think im just procrastinating against finishing my room, so let me get back to it.

peace, love and hot ribena

ps i watched "Eat.Pray.Love" earlier, aside from the whole meditation thing, and typical hollywood love, its decent. an easy watch with some good principles.... but mehh who nominated me a film critic?! ... ok im out now for real.x