I just got back from an evening at IGOC 2010. I was resisting going all the way there if im honest. im glad i went, i got something out of it... after a while i think to myself how many conferences do i need to go to?! i do see the value of conferences, but if my life doesn't significantly change and two weeks after a conference life reverts back to how i was before, i wonder what use it was going in the first place. i think im in a season of realising where i stand spiritually. i can no longer allow myself to get away with things. ive had to be really tough on myself especially in the past few months. i think im begining to outgrow the spiritual milk i was surviving on before. its not enough to sustain me. theres a deeper hunger for more. something within me is pressing me to seek after more and not be satisfied until i get it. its the strangest feeling. it keeps me up at night, it wakes me up in the middle of the night, and its the first thing on my mind in the morning... i know im starting to sound like one of those crazy christians (lol). but its like iv experienced something and nothing else is enough now. no playing church, i've found what i want, and its Jesus himself, there's no other explaination. i need Him, more than ever before. and where i have given up seeking in the past, there's an urgency for me to keep going this time. like something inside me doesent want to stop when the hype of attending christian meetings ends. like the consistency in my lifestyle needs a boost coz i wont survive the way i am now. God wants to move my generation further but i wont cope if i remain at my current level. so its up to me. to press in, or sit on the sidelines spectating as those around me go ahead. I know His grace will take me further than my heart currently desires or even imagines it wants to go.

Consume me Father.
xx


ahhh im so excited!! cant wait till sunday 29th...so in anticipation for THE BUZZ and seeing Donnie perform live in concert:

If the Earth were a golf ball

Louie Giglio - If The Earth Were A Golfball - Funny bloopers are a click away

one last try

I'm going to make one last attempt to get back into blogging... if i drift away this time, i'll just delete this account. Blogging was so much easier while I was at uni. Maybe i was just procrastinating against assignments, or maybe i just had more passion for it so i made the time to write. Its been like 5months since my last post and to say a lot has happened isnt even an exaggeration. Looking back now i wish i had paused to note down, even briefly, the the steps of my journey. but i didn't so mehh why dwell on it. im sure what i've learnt over the past few months will come out in bits and pieces anyway.

for now i'm just passing through with a clip i just saw on a friends wall... its refreshing and a good way to start recording the next chapter of my journey.



Peace, Love and Jesus.xx