Running for my life

i think its time i took more of a stand for what i believe in. so often its easier to be an undercover christian. i was kicking myself the few weeks ago after a conversation i had with this girl on my course. basically i mentioned that i went to church - to me it was nothing right, but she turned to me and was really shocked and said oh i didnt know you were a christian!! it struck me because this conversation was happening in the final weeks of our three year course. its sad that in the duration of that time i didnt cease a single opportunity to tell her anything about God at all. so much so that the very idea that im a christian could shock her. my thoughts today are challenging me. along this journey am i commited enough to the call to go right up to the frontline? i am very open about my faith when people ask, but i rarely start conversations. my justification previously has been that its better to live in such a way that will bear more of a witness. and to a certain degree i think iv done that, but now im thinking its time to take it up a notch. the things that iv learnt over my life of christian meetings and sunday services are not just for my benefit, i need to share it... Lord im gona need your help to do that btw!!

so anyway this clip below stirred me up, and its probably why im coming to these conclusions. yes God is good, merciful, gracious and all that but there really is more to christianity than the feel-good message that i have been accustomed to hearing. its not enough to go to church on sundays for the pastor to stoke my christian ego with fluffy words. i need to run out of this comfort zone im in. real life is happening out there. there is so much more than relaxed christianty. the things that i have been privaleged to see or hear have left me desiring more. the issues that i and the people around me are being faced with is waking me up to realise that this is not a battle for me to sit back and wait for others to step up to the plate. yes the end of the book says we win, but its time to make a stand on the territory God has given me... was saying to a friend the other day that i cant believe we r six months into the year already so much has happend and it amazing how far iv come. but now my outlook is i need to re-write my 2009 to-do list. iv got 6months left to accomplish more.

my latter will be greater
xx

"Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses." - 1 Timothy 6:12