whats on your mind?

that new comment in the status box is so stupid, it actually annoys me...since when was facebook a shrink? i may put things that are on my mind in my status, but i mean really did they have to ask...nonsense...ok mini rant is ova...well heres wat is on my mind lol...

so iv been away for a while...had to revise for my exam - which went ok in my opinion, but will wait to find out the results before i open my mouth any more than that...then i went to london for the weekend...yep my lil chris is married!! can just about believe it, im soo happy for them though. im not really one to cry at weddings (or in public for that matter) but i must say there were a few moments when i nearly did. like seeing a video of my spiritual parents Pastor Ed and Lori. i miss them sooo much, i dont think a week goes by without me thinking about them. i just want a hug from both of them. ahhh deep sigh. let me stop before i do start crying.

so this week really iv been thinking a lot about relationships. the wedding was realy nice. i always get so encouraged when i see Godly couples actually make it to the alter having done things the right way. it is so hard to stick to the plan, and many (including myself) have stumbled, but thank God we get up again and continue on the race. the funny part was i didnt come away from the wedding all sad that i dont have a man, i came back happy that i dont. this year really is a gift, not just because of my challenge (which seems to be at the forefront of my mind) but also because im desperate to go deeper with my relationship with God. im at that place of "enough is enough" i dont want to go round that route anymore. i want to know God. ok i know him, but i want to know more. this year is all about me and my Jesus and im excited to see what he's gona do in me. im taking things step by step.

im trying this whole "take every thought captive" thing from 2 Corinthians 10:5...so im wondering how to actively take every thought captive into the obedience of Christ. It’s all well and good to quote all these scriptures – but to actively apply it is where the rubber meets the road. thats my new outlook... so what paul was saying is that every thought that is not wholesome, or is proud, or not in line with God’s word and purposes, or negative thinking, we need to bring into the obedience of Christ. in other words, it needs to come under the Lordship of Christ. so im questioning myself - "would Jesus be able to say he fully rules and reigns over me and my thoughts?" difficult to answer. Yes he is my Lord and Saviour, but i dont think some of the things that cross my mind please him very much. ok im human, and the devil is a liar always tempting, but i dont want to use that as a justification. i have to take control as much as possible. rather than sit back and say its inevitable, im gona try and retrain my way of thinking, and get out of bad habits of dwelling on things that pop into my mind.

I was wondering about this especially in the area of negative thinking. reading and speaking out God’s word, singing and listening to praise and worship music, and speaking out the name of Jesus really helps. i love completely emmersing myself in thoughts about him. and when i do theres no room for anything else, and everything else is so minute in comparison that i dont worry about it. but do i do this all the time? nope, actually let me say not yet. iv noticed that when i listen to "secular" music, or watch random stuff on tv or online, my thoughts do change. now im not about to start shouting from the rooftops that we shouldnt do that coz to be honest i dont think i can right now. but im gona try distracting myself when i do realise that what im listening to or watching isnt edifying me. the Holy Spirit convicts me in a still small voice, and sometimes its easier to ignore, but change is here.lol...different steps need to be taken for the different results i want to see. so im gonna have to actively stop myself dwelling on things and to fill my minds with Godly things. after all these are the weapons of my warfare, and by doing this i will pull down the strongholds in my thought life.

Peace, Love and Re-aligning our thinking
xx

"We destroy every proud obstacle that keeps people from knowing God. We capture their rebellious thoughts and teach them to obey Christ" 2 Corinthians 10:5