Learning to love not knowing

Hebrews 11 - the great chapter of faith...interesting. first i have to stop at verse 2. i am so glad God doesnt still give approval based on faith coz boi i know that i would not have his approval now thats for sure. Thank God for the cross for real!! Because of Jesus, the father looks at me and sees his beloved son. Its a strange concept to understand. I mean the beauty of one act means that i can stand forgiven before my king and know that he loves me as much as he loves his son. Now that i am in Him and He is in me, i am accepted, whole, restored...the list goes on. can someone say AMAZING!!!

I've been having a rough time lately and trying to keep my mouth shut and not moan about it to everyone (new me i know). Yesterday i broke down n cried just because i had a hug. how gay is dat.lol...iv been sayin to myself i just need a hug, i just need a hug, i need someone to tell me im goin to be ok. but i never got it. and last nite a friend came over and hugged me and that just set me off. i felt rubbish for letting someone see me cry, but i actually couldnt help it.

so yer im thinking about Abraham this morning, and the different challenges he had to face. funny how we only manage to put our lives into perspective when we dont think about ourselves. Now this dude yer, i mean talk about a huge example, my man was even asked to kill his own son - seriously though i would have been screaming that the idea alone was a lil on the ermm barbaric, malicious, sadistic and outrageous side (but then again thats probably why God didnt land me on the planet back in the day - i def wudnt have made it into the bible) but the test was also a crucial lesson in choices. the tasks God likes to give us are often enormous and the obstacles formidable, but like Abraham I need to learn how to obey God wholeheartedly. No matter what. Abraham knew that however steep the mountain he had to climb, however fierce the enemy, or however nagging his doubt, if God called he would always provide. I can barely comprehend the kind of trust it took. Faith doesnt always know where it is being led, but it loves and knows the One who is leading it. A life of faith is not of intellect and reason, but knowing Who makes us go or do x, y, z. The root of faith needs to be the knowlege of a Person.

Peace, Love and remebering that God never fails
xx

"Abraham believed God, so God declared him righteous because of his faith" - Genesis 15:6