donkey donkey donkey

as i always say, God is too good to me. at such a time as this, He has surrounded me with such amazing people that really encourage and build me up, sometimes even without realising it. sometimes i got through things that even before i get to tell anyone, someone will say something that just answers my question or confirms the direction i need to go in. i am so blessed to know people of like minds, with the same vision and heart for God.

so i was talkin to one of these friends of mine like last week. he said something to me, that i didnt exactly brush off, it just took a lil longer to sink in. the comment was along the lines of read a book on whatever i'm going through... at the moment there are a few things happening that i dont know exactly where to start though - so mehh the Bible is always good so there i was in Genesis 22 and who knew there was so much in verses 3-5!! it reads: "Early the next morning Abraham got up and saddled his donkey. He took with him two of his servants and his son Isaac. When he had cut enough wood for the burnt offering, he set out for the place God had told him about. ⁴ On the third day Abraham looked up and saw the place in the distance. ⁵ He said to his servants, "Stay here with the donkey while I and the boy go over there. We will worship and then we will come back to you." .... i'v read, heard and even spoken about this story so many times, but yesterday it got me excited... i feel like im at a place where God is saying its not what i do but how i do it. Abraham definately led by example. here's my 3 observations:

a) when he had all that he needed he set out to do what God told him... previously its been like i was at a red traffic light, God started speaking to me which turned it red+ amber, but instead of waiting for the green to come i speed off but the cars infront of me hadnt cleared the crossing so i ended up in a collision. now im at an amber light of preparation. im finding that biting point, but the handbrake is still on. if i dont proceed with caution trouble can still cross my path. God hasnt given me the green light - yet. but i know that green light is coming then will i go to that place God told me about. its time i cut the wood i need, coz i need to arrive with everythin i need - theres no wood up there.

b) this is probably the funniest bit. God's sense of humour shines through... "stay here with the donkey". now the servants had travelled wid Abraham and Isaac for three days. i would have been like ermmm thats a bit out of order mate, iv come this far to stay with some donkeys?! but who knows what would have happened if they had gone all the way up the hill - there could av been a fight and Abraham ended up on that altar if the servants tried to be heroes and save Isaac. its open to speculation but it made me realise that there are some people with me on this journey that can only travel with me so far. some might not understand why i worship or pray or even live the way i do and may think that my thoughts and actions are pointless. as harsh as it is i cant let such people get in the way and prevent me from doing wat i gotta do. sometimes it aite to tell people to stay with the donkey.

c) he said "WE will come back to you". my faith is being provoked on this. most times when the test comes, i have to start praying to build myself up to a position of faith where i know God will come through in the end. rarely is it that right from the start i can say with certainty that i know what God will do, or how the situation will turn out. i want to get to that point of knowing that even if i have to lay down one thing on this altar, the reward for my obedience will be worth it, and God is able to resurrect it if He wants to.

fink im gona watch Shrek now.
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