Super in my Natural, Extra in my Ordinary

Man the last couple days have been truely somethin...i kept sayin iv gotta blog about that but not actually gettin a chance to sit down and do it...where do i start?? hmmm...

i went to dinner with some friends the other night. it was nice to let my hair down and chat about real life and not think about uni work for a change. and in the process i was so inspired by the conversations that took place. its like God is on my case about keeping to this challenge again. I had a moment the other day... i was begining to lose sight of what im doing. Thank God He is faithful to bring people to refocus me.

i listened to some amazing stories of how God brought couples together. and now all im thinking is: i want a story!!! one that's extraordinary!! everything i heard was like wow that just had to be God....eg seriously how can two people live next door to each other in a SEMI-DETATCHED house and never meet, until years later, shortly after both becoming christian, then they meet in the same church and get married?!! what?? ughh i wish i could repeat the other things i heard. more than just the story that was told though, was the way in which it was. and with that a depth of love that was so evident in their eyes as the couple looked at each other and even an unbroken connection between even when one person left the table. inspirational to say the least.... i could go on about that for ages, let me stop there... im sure God is workin out my story - maybe its even begun. ahhh, exciting!!

one other thing i was thinking about was the way in which God works. he is more able to do anything he wants, but yet he waits for me to decide to comply with his plans. the thing about the stories i heard was that who knows what would have happened if the individuals didnt do certain things or go to certain places. it was like a whole sequence of events that im like well if that minor thing didnt happen, would the result have been the same? so many times i kind of kick myself for not doing certain things. like a couple of weeks ago God told me to go talk to this taxi driver. long story short i didnt do it, and i more than regret that. what was i so afraid of? what was the worse thing that could have happened? iv prayed so many times "use me, use me", and when he gives me something to do, im like "if thats you, prove it, make this happen" or "i need confirmation thats a big step to take". when in actual fact sometimes all it needs is for me to take that step of faith in the natural and allow him to do what he wants to do through me supernaturally. i really should stop questionning God if he's sure about something!! ...and also i shouldnt really be so shocked when He does do something extraordinary - duhh He's God, nothings impossible!! i want to get to a point like my homeboys in the bible, where miracles, signs and wonders were jus happening all the time. it should be normal to hear stories of his greatness, it should be second nature for me - no strike that, first nature coz im not of this world.

Regardless of my inability to comprehend why, the reality is that he has chosen me. and because Has first loved me, i am able to love Him back, and out of my love for Him, comes obedience. and there i pause - am i willing to be obedient no matter what the task He throws at me? i want to be. i hope next time i do talk to whoever im told to talk to. i need to get over myself and this fear of looking stupid. He's given me seeds to sow, why am i keeping them in my pocket? if i want to be His hands on the earth, i need to put them to work and not be afraid of getting dirty.

God can only do his part, if I do mine.
xx

"The harvest is great, but the workers are few." - Luke 10:2