am i drowning in shallow water?

i feel overwhelmed. whats happening? i dont understand. why, Why, WHY? why cant someone tell me what to do - i never said i wanted free will (i would freely and willingly give up that right)... why cant life be simple - i dont want to have to figure things out... why am i so scared that the prophesies have not come to pass yet - even though i know its all about timing (His not mine)... why cant i let go and forget things that happened in the past - afterall He has... why do i care about the things of this world more than i should - when i know my final destination is much better than the things trying to distract me on my journey there... why does the situation feel so much bigger that it is - when i know in comparison to the greatness of my Father its minute... why do i find it so hard to surrender when i know thats the only way the problems will get solved?

asking and waiting for the answer
xx

"I cried out 'I am slipping'
but your unfailing love, O Lord, supported me
When doubts filled my mind,
your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer" - Psalm 94: 18-19