Even Jesus had haters

Iv had quite the week packed full of emotions as usual. Learnt some serious lessons in the process too.... i did something which went against how i felt in the natural, but i thought it would b best for the situation. basically i was trying to befriend someone that i didnt even need to. in the end my niceness backfired on me and i got blamed for even talking to the person. it really sucked because i had consciously made an effort to do wat i thought was right, but clearly it did me no favours. im the type of person who doesnt like confrontation, or having enemies, or even feeling awkward around people. so i was making an effort to give someone a chance and settle any differences so that when we saw each other we wud b cool. but instead i got a greater understanding that i cant please everyone all the time and i should try too hard to do so either.

At one point, i was just sitting infront of my computer, blank. not knowing what to do or even say. i couldnt believe what was happening, i was mentally numb. one of my housemates (who actually has never done this) came into my room and asked me how i was. Its so funny how God uses people even when they dont know Him per se. it was really nice i just let out everything minus the tears of course... i have this WWJD teddy bear on my bed, he looked at it, held it up to my face and asked me "What would Jesus do in this situation?". unfortunately i had to stop and say i didnt know. but it definately got me thinking... Jesus had been in similar situations, and to an even greater extreme. He came to the earth to love people, heal the sick, reunite people back into a relationship with the Father (among other things), but he was hated and persecuted for doing good. so i look at my situation and think boi this really could be worse. perspective... iv definately learnt that when i am unfairly blamed i need to keep quite like Jesus did before those who mistreated and falsely accused him. I guess selfcontrol prevailed and i didnt lash out and scream the place down even though i think that may have been justifiable, which im glad about.

A verse that helped me in my moment of despair was : "So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up" - Galatians 6:9 ... people may hate me for doing good or being nice, but at least my hands are clean that i did nothing wrong. i was just being me and if people dont want to know me for me, then not only can i force them to be my friend, but i also need to be able to let them go. it was a hard pill to swallow that i can be treated in such a way for not doing anything wrong. i cant apologise for being me. if you dont like me delete me from your phonebook and facebook, dont pretend your my friend. i dont av time for fakeness. my dissertation, revision and assignments are depending on my state of mental well-being right now. harsh i kno, but i dont want to get into this kind of mix up again. my season of compromise and lukewarmness is ending.

I did get really upset but you know what, God is faithful, He has always blessed me with friends. In a deep moment when i felt really alone and like giving up completely on the human race, God sent me an angel. a friend of mine called me. i seriously thank God for my christian friends who listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit. God knew that at that moment i felt lost, rejected and alone. but even in the darkest of corner of this earth Gods light still shines. the phonecall i got gave me hope beyond words. i may have lost a few friends, but the ones i do have are always there for me - especially when i need them most. i love you all.

Another verse, which someone put on their status helped me out too. God uses anything boi... "For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever! So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we fix our gaze on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever." - 2 Corintians 4:17-18... Good will come out of this, God is teaching me something that will be of greater value in the long run, i need to look at the bigger picture. perspective again.

Lay it all down at the altar and accept that God is in control.
xx