2:30am thoughts

im still awake at stupid o'clock so thought id blog....

i went to an investment seminar today. was quite interesting actually. id love to invest some money, but uhhh i dont av any to invest rite now, which really sucks. this jobhunt is the most repetative and annoying process iv ever experienced. its not even that im not looking for stuff... actually i dont wana start moaning. God has everything in control. Thankyou Father for my job.

its my birthday soon. should i do something or not? 23 is not a cool number to celebrate, but im grateful for every year God has blessed me with... i kinda want to, but i cannot be bothered to organise anything. one of my pet-peevs is people letting me down. it seriously bugs me when a person says they'll do something and then dont. and i have a feeling, like with every other birthday, some will say they'll come and wont. i dont know if i can be bothered to go thru that. actually i just had an idea of what to do. hahaha... im gona send out invitations saying time, date and place and not ask whos coming or not. whoever shows up shows up, if no-one comes, i'll just treat myself to a meal out. avoids disappointment, and leaves room for an element of suprise.

oooo i started reading a book today! and for me thats actually amazing so im patting myself on the back... actually that wasnt a good thought to rant about seeing as im only in the 1st chapter so cant really make a valid point... but i have just learnt that bloggin at this time of day doesnt really work for me. i need some brain food... mmm ice-cream would do nicely... actually speaking of icecream!!! what is the world coming to?! im not very impressed with Ben&Jerry's any more. their stupid stunt of changing the name of their 'Chubby Hubby' flavour to 'Hubby Hubby' to support the freedom to marry and gay rights milarky is not cool. just for that, they've lost me as a fan. i dont support such things.

ermmm next... oh im trying to properly learn scriptures. like actually where they are in the bible. the other day someone asked me where a certain verse was. i said somewhere in Psalms and sang her the song "i will lift up mine eyes to the hills from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth... " i later thought to myself how it wasnt so great that i know songs and not verses. its not a sin or anything, but makes me think. i now know that its from Psalm 121, so i guess it wasnt too bad. yesterday i learnt Psalm 1:1-4. ok so quoting it on here wouldnt prove i know it, coz i could easily just copy & paste... wait im saying it in my head to test myself....wait......a lil longer.......a lil longer.........longer........arrghhh i cant remember the last verse!! but well done me. think i'll attempt one verse at a time, clearly my mind can just about do 3.

lol i just saw how unrelated this blog-thought-pattern was. mehh at this time of day, im allowed. ok its sleepy-time now.
xx

"In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe." - Psalm 4:8