God v CommonSense

During Soul Survivor, God dared me to live in total abandonment to him. my first thoughts were trying to decode what that statement actually entailed, like trying to figure out what i was about to sign my name on. i couldnt figure it out so i just ended up saying ok. so on the sly he's been testing me - aite so maybe sly is a bad word to use, but he's been giving me little challenges that i didnt realise would just show how willing i am to be obedient.

sadly i have to admit that iv been missing it. ive had one too many instances recently when i've heard the Holy Spirit say i should do something and jus not done it and kicked myself afterwards. like there was one day i was taking good old public transport to go to a meeting. got on the northern line, arrived at london bridge and the Holy Spirit said get off here, take the jubilee line and go a different way... but nooooo me i thought i could outsmart the all-knowing!!... anyway i ended up taking my own route which resulted in me being nearly an hour late, and i had the audacity to be upset and blame TFL... could have easily been avoided, if i had got off my blessed assurance and changed tube... i realise that somethings God says go totally against common sense - like taking two tubes instead of one isnt naturally logical, but hindsight says it would have saved time. funny how sometimes i spend ages saying 'Lord speak to me/ lead me' and when he does i dont follow his direction. some things may fail at the bar of common sense, but pass at the bar of faith... i realise that the reason God dared me was because on occasion when he asks me to do something i have the attitude of the dude in Luke 9:61 "I will follow you, Lord; but first..." its not that i dont want to initially follow him, but my habit has been to make his way my plan B. iv been a modern Jonah in some instances - when my way fails then i go his. but total abandonment requires more. immediate action to his command, and not looking back. "its all or nothing" has been a theme echoing in my friendship group for a while now. or as a wise woman i know says: "Go hard or Go home" - its definately a key phrase i need to start living by. i do want to live in total abandonment. i may not get to that point 2mw, but im willing to take the necessary steps.

i need to make His way plan A, and not have a plan B.
xx

“We’ve given up everything to follow you,” - Mark 10:28