todays motto has ten two-letter words

i just had an epiphany. lol coz ive never used that word before and dont even know if thats the right context it should be used, but mehhh its done now so there... my thought was this:
someone i havent spoken to in a while called me the other day, funny enough the night before i was thinkin about him, but chose not to call because it was an ungodly hour. anyway he called me and in the course of our conversation i realised he does not know anything about my current life. it was quite serious coz i had to briefly describe everything i was doin... its funny how that one conversation sent me into analyze mode, and i began thinking about God, and how he must feel when i dont touch base with him. obviously he will always know what im doing, but its still important to get his opinion and approval in all i do. so i was a bit naughty and had skipped a few days without telling him anything, and those days actually sucked. lesson learnt. my devotion times have been messed up completely, just because i havent got a defined routine going with my working life yet. kinda bugs me that i know i need to give God more time in my day, but im struggling to.

so heres my new plan to stay on track: i found some tapes (yes i said tapes, im spiritually desperate so have to take it old school to get my daily bread) of the new testament so iv decided to listen to the bible in the car (since i seem to be having so much alone time there) and do my thang with God en route to where i need to be - another thing i need to adjust to. but its made me remember that prayer is easy, it can be done at anytime of the day, and anywhere, so i dont really have any excuses for not doin it.... and i also had to miss church yesterday (wow feel like im in a confessional booth or something), was a combination of reasons, but mainly because of work. i dont really know how i feel about working on a sunday, iv never been in this position before. if my spiritual life was on an alltime high, i dont think i would feel as bad, but right now im kinda on a small plateau on the mountain, and to be honest i dont like it here. the Kingdom of God is always advancing so why should i stay in one position. granted it is on me to progress though so its time to step up my game as the level of the challenge increases. in the words of William Johnson: "if it is to be it is up to me"

anyway i was just listening to this song... part of me wants to jump up and down, the other part is like errrr na jus sit down. lol... this song really reminds me of my church in bournemouth. huge sigh. i seriously need to go back and visit. im rambling, heres the video:




Elle
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"Give us today our daily bread." - Matthew 6:11

"It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God." - Matthew 4:4